Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Bored

As I have mentioned several times lately, I graduated a couple of weeks ago. And for the first couple of weeks I was enjoying having the freedom to hang out and lay around and apply to things on my schedule. It was nice to have time to knit and cross stitch and paint without feeling guilty (because any time not spent doing school work over the past two years caused guilt, including sleep). I've been keeping really super busy. I've been LIVING. Seeing people, going to every event every friend is having, karaoke-ing. But, now, it's been two weeks and I'm winding down from this whirlwind of happiness and accomplishment.

Some boredom is starting to set in. Because my days are full of long hours with nothing scheduled. And this can be dangerous for my well being. Well, it was dangerous for my state of mind in the past. When I start to get bored, I lose the will to do things, talk to people and make food. Generally, I get depressed. And while I feel like I'm in a really healthy place mentally, I'm scared that I'm going to fall into those old behaviors if boredom sets in. 

I'm making myself get up pretty early (I'm more of a morning person, if I slept past 10, I'd hate myself), apply to jobs and research things for a few hours. I'm going to start refreshing my knowledge of CSS and HTML. I have a plan, I'm just worried. Maybe if I wasn't worried, that'd be a problem. I don't know. 

So, that is happening. Thanks for reading :)

2 comments:

  1. Hey, I just found your blog. It's so pretty! Enjoy your free time now because I know you're going to get an amazing job!

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  2. Thank you so much! I hope so, I'm getting scared. Although it hasn't really been that long.

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